F*** it, I feel great

Remembering some recent family conversations

I’ve learned that it is very difficult to explain what an English major is to some of my family members. I just say that it’s like analyzing literature, and yet they don’t get it. I don’t mind if they don’t because honestly I can’t fully explain what it means to be an English major. It’s easier to try and explain something like a Business, Economics, Biology, or Engineering major, but I’m none of those so all my family knows is that I’m going to college and that I tell them I may become a teacher. It’s not far from the truth but it’s not what I am certain on, but I rather just leave it at that than tell them that I’m not completely sure about my future…

Well I’m pretty set on something right now, but I don’t know if I want to tell them about my ambitious desires. They wouldn’t find it practical. As important as taking care of family is to me, I want to make my mark as an individual before I think about only supporting my family or starting one. It’s a lot pressure. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so set on doing so many things. It would make life a lot easier…but I don’t want to live an easy life. Yeah, that’s just another problem. I make everything too complicated for myself.